I really don't like it when certain people get up in my face about shit that I didn't do or failed to do, and maybe some people need to just face the facts.
#1. I'm not perfect. Yes, this may be hard to believe.
#2. Hell, I'm nowhere near perfect, I suck. You should know this. And not only in the good way.
#3. I hate it when people act like I'm not accomplishing anything, because you have no clue what's going on in my life or why I'm acting the way I do. I'm stressed to the limits, I'm over-committed, I'm trying to keep everyone happy but because I'm not perfect, and because I suck, this can be suprisingly hard to do.
So please forgive me for my fucking flaws, ok? I'm sorry I can't fit your standards, you have to keep in mind who I am- I'm not that great of a person, I'm not that amazing of an actor, and I suck at basically anything and everything else. Have a little patience with me, don't stand in my way, and I will do what I need to to get where I need to be.
But get in my face about it, and you will find it suprisingly easy to push me to the edge. I guaruntee it.
This is exactly what happened to me last year that made me such a bitch, a loner, and a tool. I'm not going to let that happen again. I'm stressed enough worrying about school, choir, drama, my boyfriend... I don't need anything more. So please let me live my life, and if that means you outcast me from your social circle, then so be it. Right now, I think I have the friend support I need. If I ever find myself at a loss, trust me, you'll hear about it.
Maybe I overreacted a bit. I'm sorry, but I'm really just pissed, stressed, and have no time to myself right now. Last night I spent the majority of what time I had feeling obnoxious for wanting Jeremy back, because he's off doing something he loves and all I can think about is how much I miss him and want him back home. I was trying to cover up things this morning, which probably put a load on me that I didn't need.
Maybe I need to get a night to myself, figure things out... go out with a friend or four... -.- but I have no time. This really sucks.